June 19th 2011

So much as happen the past few months, i moved out of the apt on April 15th and into my new house. Thank god i moved out the place was a nightmare. the new house is a lot of work and never ends.work is very busy and keeps me moving.. I am now the owner of a great yellow lab who is awesome, who i love and cant live with out. The 15th was Jessica's 25th birthday and Friday was my moms and today my good people is Fathers day which my dad chose to pick a fight the night before so it should be good. He is a major dick head most of the time to me. Seems like when all i do is right and he cant fight with anyone else he thinks in the pea size brain lets fuck with Chris...its goes like this...he yells at me and when hes done he said i have to go... FUCK that last night i gave it back to him hard. It was bc i never dropped off my moms birthday gift yet bc i worked late on Friday and Saturday...wait that's right those assholes never even gave me a card never mind a gift. Its going to be a fight he cant win. As i get older and i think back about my dads and grandfathers relationship it is starting to remind me of me and him. My grandfather pushed my dad away until it was to late to rebuild the relationship. guess what hes doing the same with me. Family is just not for me, i can give or take them. How many times can you be shit on treated like shit talked  to like shit until you just feel like a piece of shit.. if it was not for this house.. i would probably stop taking to them all.  Soccer ha ha i want to quite i don't like it anymore. Parents suck all of them, they are all know it alls hello dip shit if you know it all then fucking coach your own kids team.this is one hell of a rant lol ..Jessica....Jessica lol she is Jessica.still sweet and trying to make everyone else happy but herself..but she may be happy but who know what happiness really is.